It's in the air... memories of Crimea. The chill and our current, domestic linguistic situation have focused these memories on my first long-weekend on the beautiful peninsula.
So, I had been studying Russian for several weeks at that point. Till my battle with Russian, I had always been one of the best in my language studies, Spanish, French and Italian. But then! I was placed with three others in
Smila, Ukraine to study Russian, three others that had already studied Russian at university. So I was The Slow One. I hated it and the obstructive affective filter was on high.
But then came our work-site visit weekend and I travelled with the other Crimean-bound Volunteers. And it turned out that I was at the top of that group linguistically, which did wonders for my confidence and lowered my affective filter, allowing me to climb quite a few rungs, very quickly, on the never-ending ladder to Russian mastery.
When I returned to Russian class the next week, my teacher and mates all exclaimed, "What happened to you?!" "You can speak Russian!"
Now, there is another language-learning phenomenon called petrification. Unfortunately, I believe that is my case now, with Spanish.
Previously, due to weekly conversations with our dear L., maybe I had improved a bit. She thought so. But then she left for some weeks and I now realize, for all intents and purposes, that I am petrified. Maybe I have a bit of wiggle room, but I am definitely trapped in this level. I am beginning to doubt that I could ever break through. I still assert that this static Spanish is better than none for my kids, but it's boring, annoying and saddening for sure.
What to do? !Adelante! L. brought us many books from Colombia, which we will all devour. I am on the search for more music and I have found more shows in Spanish for the kids. And maybe, just maybe, those $475 tickets to BogotA will fly me over the hump!